I think I said something like this last year after my adventures at Rafter K, but: last weekend seems to have affected me more than I realized at first. It's not physical any more (my head is better, but my hand and hip still hurt; they'll take more time); it's emotional. I'm in that place where I oversleep and find myself needing time away to get my head together. Working on not feeling guilty for needing said time. I have to remind myself that riding isn't my job. It's what I love to do, and it's okay if I need some time to sort out my head, or do the things that pay for all of this. I am who I am, even if I'm not as strong or as ... committed? whatever ... as other people. I can do this, but I have to have a little more time to finish picking up the pieces of my confidence and fitting them back together.
So ... yeah. Didn't make it to lessons this weekend. I'm conflicted about this -- oversleeping has become a symptom of something going on in my head instead of just How It Is any more. I want to be ready to jump back on and jump, but I think the time while the barn is off at a show this coming week will be good for me to just get on and ride, practice position, and kind of be alone in my head while I do it. No pressure, just ... ride. Stay in the saddle for a few rides before I go jump anything again.
I know I can do all this. I can. Just ... hang on a sec while I find the last little bits of my brain, k?