Best decision I've made all week: refill brain medicine and take some before riding tonight. The world is a MUCH better place when I don't have head zaps and don't feel like the world is ending. Seriously, I wasn't sure after the last few flat rides whether I needed a pep talk or wanted to be left alone for the rest of my life; wasn't sure if I wanted to cry or go catatonic; etc. Our resident European deserves a lot of credit for being patient with me and encouraging me - heh, welcome to what it's like to be my teacher, ORE! Good moments separated by baffling incompetence. ;)
Anyway, all joking aside, I am mentally and physically ready to rock again. Whew. I am still having to talk myself down from wanting to win, telling myself that all I care about is doing our best on that day, going forward and positive on course and staying smooth and obedient in dressage. If I don't get a ribbon, so be it - just do my best. And keep up on the brain medicine and the sinus/breathing medicine!
*nodnod*
Yay! I keep waffling between "build calm, positive experiences for baby brain since we're making a sport horse, not an intro champion" and "ZOMGZ WANT ALL THE SATIN".
ReplyDeleteExactly!!! WANT SATIN, but ... I am reconciling myself to being last of the four seniors in my division. :) I'll do the best I can and not beat myself up about it. RIGHT?? Right.
Deletebrain medicine. so important. glad you're refilled and ready to rock. Managing your expectations for the show is healthy but there's nothing wrong with wanting some satin. ;]
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