Determined to be awesome!

Ahem.

Is this thing on?

I am a terrible, terrible blogger! Well, okay, I'm a fine blogger who doesn't update often. I'm working on it, I promise.

The current status of me and Rev is that we were doing fine this fall. I felt like I sometimes used to when I studied aikido: I learn how to do something, it seems like I have it mastered and can move on, and then I forget how to do it. Or my body forgets. Or something -- with jumping, I had been doing really well and MT was talking about having me jump a little higher, and I was excited. But then things fell apart, and then they fell apart a little more, and then a little more ... I kept at it, until recently.

I have rotator cuff damage in my right shoulder. It's been there for a while, but it started to get markedly worse after I almost fell back in November and wrenched my shoulder around as I dismounted-on-purpose-really. And it's just continued to get worse since. So -- I'm grounded for a while, until I can get to a doctor and get a diagnosis and treatment plan. I really don't want to do any more damage than there already is.

So Rev's in half-training with MT, and I'm working on getting psyched up and slimmed down for the coming year. I'd kind of fell into a place where I didn't believe in myself any more, riding-wise, and I'm dragging myself out of it by the scruff of the neck by exercising so I'll be in better shape when I go back. I think a lot of my problems relate directly to not being strong enough in the quads and the core and having too much weight to haul around -- I think it affects my balance. And I'm planning on derbies and clinics and camps and all that kind of great stuff for the coming year! Change that attitude from head-hanging depression and mopeyness to excitement that it's all going to start soon!! That I'll be ready and excited to jump back in the saddle as soon as my shoulder's stable! Awesome!

And Rev will benefit immensely from being in half-training. It might be just through February 15, but probably through March 15. Eight weeks of MT riding her will be SO good for her. This is awesome! Awesome, I say! :)

I'll update more as I can. :)